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  • Me - Here you will find my personal description, ruminations, and other somewhat boring stuff. [9/25/2004]
    (hidden) Bio I wrote for Joe. He told me I got some of the details at the end wrong, but died before he got the chance to go over it with me. This is the longest version; there's several others that are cut-backs of this one, done so he'd have material to choose from depending on the length of the book.
    • Verse contains a collection of a few of the songs and poetry I've written over the years. [10/16/2004]
      • Fire And Ice was the second song written for the band, and quite possibly what cemented the band idea in our heads. [2/22/05]
      • I owe someone an apology for Right. What is described in the song happened to me several times over the years, and when folks said this song was written to a particular individual I didn't argue the point. I don't think he's ever forgiven me for that, especially as this became one of our more popular songs. [2/22/05]
      • There was a time in my life when I was prone to collapse for no reason at all. It's Just About Me was written in response to that helpless look in my significant other's eyes whenever this happened... [2/22/05]
      • The Angry Sea, a song for the college band. My first ballad, as Mom put it. [2/22/05]
      • Hindsight, a song I wrote for my college band. We used to call it the Pirate Drinking Song. [1998]
      • Khillysta's Song (pronounced khie-ee-sta, khie as in pie with a huffing sound after the k) was written to a dear beloved friend of mine. It was the first song that I got bullheaded about and wrote lyrics and music myself, and well... I'm not sure it stays in one key for more than a phrase or two in some areas. Sorry, too much Sondheim I guess. It's got an eerie, ethereal sound. [2/22/05]
      • Days Go By happened after I watched Grease several times one weekend, and you can really tell. It was my second effort (and last for the band) for both music and lyrics, but this time with a less ethereal sound. [2/22/05]
      • One Brick Slips Out, written after hearing of yet another office shootup. This one has music, and a bit of twang to it. [7/2001]
      • Surrender, a song I wrote in June of 2001 to my guiding spirit. The song as it wound up doesn't quite read like this, but this is the complete thought. [7/2001]
      • Stay The Course just sorta happened, while I was sitting around waiting for my boss to get off the phone so we could have our scheduled meeting. I think I was listening to Barry Manilow (I Made It Through The Rain) somewhen in there. I know the melody to the last two phrases, and that's it. [2001]
      • Wheels was found in my poetry book in February of 2005. Based on the paper it was scribbled on, I'd date it somewhere in 2002 or 2003. I find it a shame that it was lost so long... [02/22/2005]
      • I'm not sure just what The Journey is, it was one that smacked me in the back of the skull while working at my desk one day. [3/31/2003]
      • I pulled out some CDs from college, from a local band I used to know, and got to thinking about how I wasn't writing much lately. It's not an uncommon brood for me when I start thinking about music again. Out came Muse. [02/22/2005]
    • Pondering contains the prose bits I've written. Here you'll find rants, me thinking things through, and other stuff that's more personal than anything else. [10/17/2004]
      • 911, Something I wrote in response to the events of September 11, 2001 [9/15/2001]
      • Pan Or Poly is an old thought process, where I was trying to determine if I was a pantheist or a polytheist. Neither one fit. There's a good reason for that - I'm an animist. Still, I thought it might be of value, and included it here. [1/25/2003]
      • Bender was an letter to Buck Brannaman after reading his book, The Faraway Horses. Unfortunately I have no way to send it to him, and he probably doesn't have the time to read it anyway. Still, it helped me to get it off my chest. [8/19/2003]
      • Spiritual Enlightenment, something I wrote in a fit of frustration recently when someone threw the term around once too often for my tastes. [9/13/2004]
      • Man contains my views on the nature of mankind, and what I believe are the misconceptions thereof. [10/18/2004]
      • Benedict XVI contains my reflections on the impact on me of the death of Pope John Paul II and the election of Benedict XVI. [05/12/2005]
      • Special is just another one of my silly rants about putting things on children, and the overuse of a term [06/07/2005]
      • GOTT (Guardian of the Threshold) is a series of posts taken from the Tribe list about a conversation I recently had with one of my cats, and the concept of the Guardian of the Threshold.[06/28/2005]
      • Syrinx is about what I went through when I was diagnosed with Syringomyelia - a diagnosis that can be either congenital or ultimately terminal. [12/20/05]
  • Cecil - Here you will find writings about my dear departed Cecil-cat [12/21/05]
    • We were lucky enough to know that Cecil was dying, but not in pain, before he passed. Two weeks we had to literally spoil him to death. Somewhen in there I started keeping a log of his last days. This is it. [12/21/05]
    • In the Toteg Tribe, our mourning rite contains 3 days of grief and wailing, 3 days of silence, and 3 days of remembrance. During those last 3 days I wrote up these remembrances. They made me smile. [12/21/05]
    • I'm a Cat was a song written by 5 1/2 years collaboratively. We often practiced in my apartment, and the cats would sometimes take part *cough* in the proceedings, so one day someone was playing a blues riff and started it, and then we laughingly started contributing verses in tribute to (ok, making fun of) the various cats in the house. Many of them were about Cecil. Here's the lyrics. [12/21/05]
  • Path - Here you will find various writings about my path. [9/25/2004]
    • Pseudoscience is a place for me to put a few things I've written that lean toward the "new science" bent.[10/15/2004]
      • Six Dimensions, a bit of text I wrote in September 1999 describing a theory I came up with from my college Quantum Mechanics course. [9/1999]
      • What Bleep (short for What the Bleep Do We Know, a movie I saw recently that got me thinking about things again.) [10/13/2004]
    • Lessons contains various realizations I have made, or quotes I have found that made me stop and think. [no date available]
      • Quotes contains quotations from outside sources that spoke to me at one time or another.[10/14/2004]
      • Insights contains bright insights I have had at some point in time.[3/30/2000]
      • Disillusionment contains darker insights I have had at some point in time.[8/4/2003]
      • Random started out as a few thoughts I had one night about certain concepts, but wound up a holding cell for some things I haven't had the chance to treat in depth. [9/25/2004]
    • Theory contains various documents about the theory behind my path, and general ramblings about the philosophies of my path [10/17/2004]
      • Living contains those bits that are more related to a way of life than actual magical work [10/17/2004]
        • Choices contains a discussion about personal responsibility, a key tenet of this path. [7/2001]
        • Tolerance describes my views about, well, tolerance. [7/2001]
        • Shadows and Light contains a discussion about the shadows and light in each of us, and is the source of the name of this path and of my site. [7/2001]
        • Influences contains a discussion about how learning seems to work, at least in my experience. [8/27/2003]
        • Sacred Life is a rant written in a fit of frustration, at the stated idea that the loss of a pet was insignificant. [9/22/2004]
        • Yourself is a semi-rant dedicated to a critical element of my path: the value of the self and self knowledge. Many traditions speak of eliminating the ego and that somehow seems to get turned into eliminating the self. I disagree. [12/20/05]
      • Working contains those bits that are more related to the actual Work than to living [10/17/2004]
        • Elements describes the elemental system I use, which is core to my path.[1999]
        • Spirits contains a quick description of my attitudes towards and relationship with various types of spirits, as it relates to my path. [7/2001]
        • Deity describes my thoughts on gods and goddesses, and my relationship with my own patron. [10/16/2004]
        • ThoughtForms contains a discussion of one of my favorite types of energy to work with, and some of the checks and balances in its use. [8/2001]
        • Psychic Wars! contains a discussion about what I call Psychic War Syndrome, a prevalent phenomenon within the pagan community. [7/2001]
        • Ceremony is a discussion of the role of ceremony and consciousness in interactions with spirit. Warning: it's a bit long. [2/22/05]
        • Souls describes my thoughts on the nature of the soul, and soul fragmentation. [6/21/2007]

  • Practice contains various documents about the practices of my path, things that are specific to my path and techniques that are core segments of the path. [7/2001]
    • Walk/Journey contains a discussion of my definitions and applications of the spirit walk and the shadow journey, and the differences between the two in my path. [7/2001]
    • The 'Me' Cave contains a description of a key technique in my path, my command center and status report room in journey space. [7/2001]
    • The Grove contains a description of the parallel technique of the "Me Cave" above, my workspace and entrance to the spirit world. [7/2001]
    • Snapping a Circle contains directions I wrote for the Visar's guild and the Journeymen of my tribe, to share my technique of creating instant sacred space when necessary. [3/30/2007]
    • Wiccan Rede contains a discussion of my views on the Wiccan Rede. Sounds like theory, but really it's a way of looking at life. [4/21/2003]
    • Mental Quiet contains directions I wrote for the Tribe's list of methods I've encountered for quieting the mind. [9/4/2007]
    • Experiences contains descriptions of a few experiences I've had. [10/17/2004]
      • Convergence narrates my coming to understand that everything converges. [9/2/2001]
      • Doubts contains a conversation between me and an Elder (Elder's comments snipped) about some of the doubts I had along the way. I thought they were relevant, both because they contain experiences that belong here and because that kind of doubt I expect is not uncommon. It's been said that we come to the Visar's path kicking and screaming. Well, here's some screaming for you. [9/23/2002]
      • I've mentioned in the past that My Lord rather runs things for me. Here's an experience that was somewhat tied up with a time I disobeyed him. Bad idea. [10/7/2003]
      • Storm Song contains two emails I sent to the Toteg Tribe mailing list about an experience I had while Ivan was coming in, and the nature of my workings with storms. [9/21/2004]
      • Remembering, something I wrote after a walk in the woods. It might be about the loss and recovery of innocence, but it might not. [10/13/2004]
      • Spider Song contains two emails I sent to the Toteg Tribe Journeymen list about an experience I had working with Spider. [10/15/2004]
    • Music is something I wrote about the role of music in my path. [10/19/04]
    • Missing Bits is a process for what some call "Soul retrieval," or getting back bits of yourself when you feel they've been lost. [02/23/2009]
  • Links - What website would be complete without links to other sites? [no date available]
 

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